Live H2O

Last weekend I was fortunate enough to participate in the LiveH2o festival in Long Beach. If your not familiar with Live H20, it's probably because this year was it's first year. It was a global concert to heal our precious waters. So basically I manifested having a weekend office on the beach, while listening to amazing music and speaker and soaking up the amazing energy. I found myself going through some really amazing learning and healing in that space, all while having fun. All three days were amazing. Friday, I pretty much sold out of all the macaroons I had brought only to leave the beach just in time to head to the nearest Whole Foods and gather more ingredients. The next morning, my son was with my mom so I got a head start on heading out. I ended up being one of the first people from our group at the booth. So as I tried to tidy up as much as possible and with our booth looking disheveled as ever, my basket and backpack resting on a torn up folding table. I had my first sale of the day. I noticed a real change when my energy shifted. When I had arrived at the beach fresh, with no worries or expectations I had people coming to me and buying my product with no effort at all. That day seemed mellow. I found myself lounging in a chair, reading an old "ideal day" I had written out. Reflecting on some of the things that had manifested out of that. I realized that one manifestation that I really held fast to during the past year, " One day the beach really will be my office!" I remember how I use to just day dream about that, thinking oh that's a good motivator, but it's not my reality. Then one day it felt right and possible. Yes! I know that the beach will be my office one day, and knew that is would come sooner than later. So I sat there on Saturday, chatting with the girls, and realizing that I had manifested yet another dream. Even if it was just for the weekend, it was such a nice reminder of my power and possibilities. That day I ended up selling out completely of macaroons. This time stocking up even more at Whole Foods. Sunday was magic also, with a bumpy emotional start to the day I drove to Long Beach, headed to the farmer's market first. As I drive I always get messages in license plates. Usually always a 444 ( There are angels -they're everywhere around you! You are completely loved, supported and guided by many heavenly beings, and you have nothing to fear.) or a 333 (You are completely surrounded, protected, loved and guided by the benevolent ascended masters.) So on this morning I received two sets of 555. My quick interpretation was 555= big changes. I thought, yeah big changes, I know I am the one making them. I quit my job for crying out loud. Then I reached over to get out my Angel Numbers 101 bible, I seriously never leave home without it. Ok let me get the clear interpretation of 555. It read: Huge changes are rumbling throughout your entire life! To keep these changes on the highest possible course, be sure to keep your thoughts positive, and stay centered in prayer and affirmations. So after reading that I took a moment to offer some negative thoughts up to the angels. I simply asked for help. Less than two minutes after, while driving through the farmer's market parking lot I had an intuitive reader approach my car window and proclaim that she could see alot was going on for me while I drove by. I proceeded to park while she waited for me, she took me to her booth and knocked my socks off. As I walked away I knew that my angels lined that up so I could hear just what I needed to hear at that moment. I proceeded to gather some of California's finest produce and headed down to the beach to meet many other sychronicities. Everything I needed was there that day, immediately, without even asking. We ended the night with an amazing healing meditation/prayer to the water. It was so fun to see my son love up the water by completely immersing himself in the waves and sand. I wish I had pictures but I actually didn't take any. All in all, it was fun times had by all. Great healing, learning, growing and opportunities. It's all part of the fun.

Cleansing and Enemas!!! I'm coming clean.

Time to get down and dirty here. I feel the need to spread the word about enemas because I had developed a great appreciation for them and feel that the world would be a better place if we could openly talk about the stuff we shove (oh so gently) where the sun don't shine. Now I know there are people who take it too far, but there are people who take anything too far. I think it hit me when my son's dad inquired why I liked them so much. I had been raving about juice feasting with enemas. He just couldn't wrap his head around why I was raving about them. Yesterday I got the tip from the amazing Suki Zoe to to a garlic enema. I have had a slight cold for the past few days and this seemed like the perfect aid to healing. I had never know about garlic enemas. But it made sense, because of garlic's antibacterial qualities. This gave me the idea to share with ya'all.

I had been first introduced to enemas earlier this year, when I was battling a nasty post holiday cold that would not go away. My friend sternly asked me the last time I went to the bathroom. I thought, damn us raw foodies like to talk about poop too much, but then is dawned on me. I hadn't gone recently. When we are sick, we are usually backed up. Our body is holding onto toxins, no wonder we are sick. So he stated that an enema would have me feeling 100 times better. So I searched and searched and couldn't find any enema bags where in stores. Finally I researched online and found a stainless steel enema bucket. I really liked the idea of an easy bucket and not having my warm liquids steeping in plastic. I have to say it was one of the best $30 investments I have ever made. It is so essential to clean your system especially when fasting or cleaning, and when you find yourself sick.

So here is my revelation about the enemas, aside from the fact that they keep your booty clean. A couple weeks ago I was doing my liver/gallbladder cleanse and I was prepping for the coffee enema that you do on the flush day. I knew after the enema I would do a castor oil pack and rest, so I set up everything so I could get into bed and have everything I needed right there. I realized that I had been prepping my body for this flush for three days and I might as well treat myself as sweetly and gently as possible. Getting rid of gallstones and mucus that have been in my system since who knows when is a big deal. So I set up my enema equipment. Unplugged my cd player and put it in the bathroom. Played my Larisa Stow cd (yeah I still don't own an IPod) and lit my favortie candles. It was the best enema experience I have ever had. I ended up singing this one mantra over and over just because it was the one song that calmed me the most. Later to realize it was the ganesha mantra, fully appropriate for releasing obstacles. Here's what it comes down to, holding a quart or two of any type of liquid is not the easiest thing to do. The whole idea of putting something up your ... can cause some anxiety. But when you can relax and know that your body is stronger than you can ever imagine and visualize and know that all the junk that you have been holding onto that is no longer serving is on it's way out. Then damn, high- five superhero! Amen for taking care of yourself. I find that when the body calls upon cleansing, it is usually not just physical but emotional and spiritual also. I think anyone who has fasted can agree, you might enter in thinking you are just going to feel the physical side effects, then bam all these funky emotions and thoughts and sensitivities come about. The other week I got to hear Philip talk for the first time. He shared how he never went through any heavy detox symptoms because he was eating heavy things like large amounts of avocados and nuts everyday. I noticed that I do that same thing and have lately been in a habit of overeating. Even if it's the best raw food, I have found myself standing there senslessly scarfing, not because of hunger, but because there are things coming up that are so strong that I felt I couldn't deal with them. They weren't always sad per say, alot of times I was elated beyond belief but found that I needed to go to sleep so I could function "normally" at my job the next day. It's like I had to shut off the bliss so I could join the rat race again without feeling completely crazy. Now I am coming to realize that it's time to let these things surface. My body and my soul are ready a huge transformation and I have been supressing it for too long, afraid of my own power. Just last night, I used Philips advice. My cold moved from my head to my chest. My chest became so tight and at one point my heart was in pain. I had to stand in front of the mirror and just do some loving affirmations. I knew the chest tightening was me now letting something through and the heart aching was me feeling guilty for messing up and letting myself get sick. It feels so great to be able to listen to my body and hear exactly what this sickness is teaching me. As I layed on my bed last night I felt some emotions come up strongly, I cried for a minute and let them go and immediately my chest lightened up. I have a feeling that there is alot that I need to really release, not just focus on and work through but release! But thankfully I am in a really gentle loving and open space in my life where I have no fear of just letting them go. I have amazing people around me and I know that taking these moments to take care of myself are the best thing I can do. It's crazy to see how I have been into raw food for just about two years and I am now getting into the heavy cleansing part. I remember reading discussions and posts about cleanses and I couldn't understand what it was all about. I thought raw food alone was a cleanse and it seemed like some people were just taking it too far. But now I understand more about the body, and I feel now that my body wants to be stronger than ever, my spirit too. My inner self wants to rid all of the old thoughts associated with the old habits so we can finally soar and live to my greatest potential. Here's hoping you are soaring also.

Love Ya!


Gallstones on a Chuck E Cheese plate, these are the largest ones and probably a third of what I actually passed.

Just call me the Professional Manifester

I really need to make an effort to blog more. I might actually have time for it now. I get to the point where I want to blog but the is so much on my mind I just get overwhelmed. So maybe a weekly update is necessary. Since you have heard from me I have been manifesting and vortexing with the pros. I started a new relationship, which was sparked by that cute little nose piercing I got the weekend I decided to let go of non serving "things" and juice fast. It's amazing the things that come to you when you decide to completely let go. This relationship brought so much. Everything a usual relationship does; romance, excitement, chocolate :) But this angel has really influenced my life, assisting me in really manifesting all the things I have been dreaming of. One of my intentions at the beginning of the year was to travel and in the past two months I have had two road trips and am about to depart to Raw Spirit Santa Barbara for the weekend and most likely will venture up to Oregon for the Raw Union. If you would have told me I would be doing all of these things a couple months ago I would not be able to wrap my head around how it would all be possible. But that's just the trick. I never have had to wrap my head around it all. Just take care of a few details and everything works out so smoothly. That is what the vortexing deal is all about. When things are meant to be then they will be without too much effort, or barely any effort at all.

The funnest part of these past few months has been my return to Eden. I had left Eden saying I will be back, and truly felt it. Yet when it got time to sign up the money and time wasn't there. I settled and said, well maybe it isn't my time this time. My love had other ideas. So low and behold we manifested me a spot in the kitchen working the luscious liquid love retreat. The details aren't too important. But I will tell you what I did realize about manifesting. It really is as simple as Abraham puts it in Ask and It Is Given. You ask for what you desire and let it happen, forget how it is going to happen and receive! I find that middle part is the hardest. We naturally feel the need to figure out how things are going to work. I did this for a bit with Eden, I had got somewhat frustrated, because I had asked for the time off, scheduled everything for my son and was planning what to pack, etc. just on the feeling that I was going. I had no confirmation. So as much as I was "ok with whatever is meant to be", I didn't want to get all excited by doing that last step of packing my bag, charging my camera while envisioning all the pictures I would take, spending 10 days with my love and then find out that wasn't going to happen. Finally I just really let go. I let it go to the angels, finally felt that no mistakes are ever made and I really don't need to stress. Once that happened. I got my confirmation within about 10 hours and everything was falling into place.

Days later we drove up to the gates, actually we had the gates opened up as we drove up, no need to even slow down! At some point it clicked for me. I was sitting in view of the kitchen at one point, and I flashed back to my first Eden experience. When we gathered to eat the delicious food that Melissa, Frankie and Philip had prepared, I remember looking at how happy and playful they were standing behind that table. I remember how at that moment I had this desire to be there with them. I admired the fun, playfulness, love and music that was going on in that tiny little kitchen and imagined how it must feel to be there. So that is the other key. You really have to put yourself in the feeling place. Observe your desire and feel it out for a second. No need to dwell on it, thing of how to make it work, nothing. If I would have let my mind do that then I would be planning and scheming on how to get some official raw culinary training and then get in good with whoever it may be that would get me in that kitchen. Instead I did nothing, and landed myself in the kitchen with some super experienced and talented raw chefs whom had at this point become very close friends and loved ones naturally. At one point the intimidation of working with this talent got to me and eventually landed me one sliced open finger, but that is another story.

More recently I have been in the kitchen non-stop. I fell in love with unbaking again and remembered where the desire to open a cafe came from. In the past four days I made four banana cream pies. I love the simple, nostalgic, homemade taste that this pie embodies and want to share it with everyone I possibly can. I have also been playing around with macaroons. These simple delights are so fun to experiment with. I came up with two fun flavors that I will be distributing at Raw Spirit along with LoveSnax chocolates! Speaking of Raw Spirit, I have the honor of driving up with my favorite raw celebrity and another raw blogger whom first introduced me to raw chocolate making. I am so excited to share this experience with the raw family and my son! If you are attending please come by Elaina Love and LoveSnax booths to get some raw love and say Hi! Take care and see you next week for the post party update.


One of my favorite pictures from Eden. Two of the three couples that were in the kitchen.

The Abraham Experience

I almost posted another vlog, but after a failed attempt to upload I realized that I would rather not share nearly 10 minutes of complaining to the world. Instead I will share the joy of the experience I had yesterday at the Abraham-Hicks workshop. I have been into Abraham for awhile now. It all started with Shazzie's recommendation of watching the Rampage of Invincibility on Rawkin Radio. After figuring out what was going on I soon started playing Abraham you-tubes in the background while I worked. Then also streaming the play lists over and over while I cleaned my room and worked around the house. At the beginning of the year I put seeing Esther and Jerry on my list of goals for the year. Then earlier in the month I checked their schedule and saw that they would be visiting March 28th and 29th. Perfect, this would be much easier and cheaper than booking a cruise. I cut out the details and taped them to my vision wall. Before I knew it, I had my registration confirmation in my email box. I was so beyond belief that I would actually get to experience the amazing non-physical entity knowledge that is called Abraham. I didn't care if anyone was coming with, and looked forward to meeting other Abe nerds. But with just tiny bit of inviting my mom registered just as easy. I was like a kid on Christmas Eve on Friday night, telling my mom to get to sleep so we can be in line at the Universal Hilton Ballroom and 7am. I had my bag packed, cards, crystals, new journal, favorite pen, baggy full of superfood trail mix. We ended up arriving at the Hilton around 7:30. Only a few people were lined up. Once the doors opened at 8 I ran to the second row of seats. I didn't want to be directly behind the hot seat. I loved the seats we got, perfect few of Jerry and Esther. My mom was such a trooper. While she introduced me to The Secret and was going to sign up for a Abraham Meetup, she didn't know what they were all about. So while we waited I purchased my first copy of Ask and It is Given, flipped it open to the Introduction to Abraham and had her learn the whole story of how Abraham came to Jerry and Esther. She finished in perfect timing. Jerry and Esther came out, set up a bit, Jerry did an intro. Then Ester took the stage, she stood behind the podium and said "Hello...Goodbye". Oh wow, my heart soared, I am actually here live witnessing and being a part of this and not just watching a video.

So here is the breakdown of what we learned. Mom and I took copious notes. Mom in her usual perfectionist style, organized hers by questions proposed to Abraham. I just jotted what I felt I might need to come back to. So those of you who follow Abe are familiar with "the stream". Well, that has now been replaced with "the vortex". The vortex! vortex! vortex!, it was drilled into our brains. The basic idea is that the vortex is when you are happy, when you are source energy, when everything in your life is right and it literally feels like the world revolves around you. After acknowledging that the vortex exist, we all worked together in figuring out how to get closer and back into the vortex through exploring different people's experiences and struggles. It was funny to see how the audience was primarily women, but it seemed like mostly men were in the hot seat. I figure maybe they have some purpose after all. I kid, I kid. Also, my mom had gotten sick of the relationship questions at some point. Not that there were too many, it's just that was the fist question and we spent so much time on it. We also had the pleasure of sitting next to a woman who was really caught up on her relationship issue. I really give those people respect. They sat up there and at some times got pretty harassed all so we could receive the knowledge we were all calling upon. Sometimes it seemed that the hot seat participant would come away still not getting it. But everyone else did. Maybe when your in the spotlight it takes more time for it to soak in.


So here is the main point. I hate to put 8 hours of vortexing and vibrating so simply, but this is what it always comes down to.... do what makes you happy! Use your emotional guidance, let go of resistance and flawed premises. The key is that you know what it feels like in the vortex, and you know you can always get back there. It doesn't matter how fast you get there, or how long you stay in as long as you know it's there. At the end of the day it was so relieving to have true confirmation that there is a space where all your desires do exist in harmony.

How do you get closer to the vortex? Let go of control. Especially with relationships. Once you realize that the only thing you can control is how you feel life is so much easier. Instead of blaming someone, thinking that is they were different you would feel better, focus on making yourself feel amazing. Just like Diane von Furstenburg reminded Whitney on that episode of 'The City' a few weeks ago, the most important relationship is the one between you and you. I really like this analogy also. Remember when we were kids, or think of the kids in your life. When they play, everyone always has their own rules. One kid will say " I will do this and you will do that" and the other will counter with their own set of rules. But they don't argue, they just continue playing in their own worlds, making themselves happy. You never see kids playing together just "walking in a straight line". They all play with thier own rules and get along doing it. So be more playful, get yourself in that vortex, where it feels like everything is revolving around you and everything, EVERYTHING!, will fall into place. If you over think it, it can be hard to accept. But hopefully you have the chance to feel it, and will be able to get yourself back there.

I will probably post a little more about the teaching soon, but let's wrap up the day. When we were done, my mom expressed her gratitude for the opportunity to experience what we did. I was so happy to see that she knew how blessed we were to be in that space, and she picked up on it so quickly. But I would expect nothing less from my mama. We then headed to Erewhon. We sat at the tonic bar and got to hear Truth consult some aspiring actresses. She ordered some superfood smoothie, while I got a kefir margarita. She was eager to get home to her grandson so we didn't linger too long. As we walked out, she spotted an Amma poster on a bulletin board. It had dates for Amma visits in Orange County this upcoming week. I was so happy to see that, somewhat amazed but not surprised. Information tends to come at just the right time, when I'm not even looking. That is a perfect example of being in the vortex. I had checked the Amma sites probably two days before and didn't see any info. And then there is was, instead of the LA info I was looking for, there was something sooner, smaller and closer to me. I keep pinching myself, not believing all that happened yesterday. But it did, and it was all beautiful. I am so grateful for it all. More posting soon, expansion on my notes, my experience using the knowledge while faced with a challenge and whatever happens between then and now.

Till then,
Disa

Info Bit-Parsley

I had a bunch of parsley left over from my weekend produce buy. Almost 20 bunches to be exact! I have been using at least a bunch at a time for my green juice. Being that I buy intuitively most of the time and can never remember specific benefits attached to certain foods I was happy to see this info come from Victoria Boutentko's email newsletter.

Parsley contains three times as much vitamin C as oranges, twice as much iron as spinach, is rich in vitamin A and contains folate, potassium and calcium. What's more, parsley is also recognized for its cancer-fighting potential.

Wow, those little curly bundles pack a punch!
Juice Up!

Feeding the Heart

My life has been pretty exciting lately. I have experienced life in completely different ways on so many different levels. That last week of the year I found myself in a great space. You all saw the vision wall, the books. I was immersed in it all. Goal setting, visualizing, writing, nurturing, soaking it all up and taking action. I had an intensity for awhile that I thought would stay with me. I was surprised to find that I got to a point where I didn't feel so intense, but I did still have the passion inside. I came to realize that the hours upon hours I spent doing those activities paid off. My soul visions and knowledge are activated and now I can go and live the life I want and watch it all play out. For a second I felt lazy. Like I should be "working" on all my visions constantly. But then I realized that there is time to work, and time to let the work unfold. So here I am in the unfolding space and it feels great! My daily Abraham quote for today perfectly summed up what I came to realize and feel.

"Within the seed of your desire is everything necessary for it to blossom to fulfillment. And Law of Attraction is the engine that does the work. Your work is just to give it a fertile growing place in order to expand "

This is the fun part. I saw this all tied into my eating. I am not sure if one impacted the other but I can definitely see a connection. During the end of the year I was kicking that cold, and also eating what resembled my usual holiday comfort food. I did it subconsciously, but see it all clearly now. Since I had a habit of indulging on sweets more that anything else during the holidays, I pretty much fed myself a sweet raw diet for awhile. I needed my Vata food; heavy, oily, sweet, salty. So I made lots of smoothies, not the green ones either. More like almond butter, banana, cacao, spirulina, coconut butter, maca, cinnamon. I lived off Bliss Balls and my homemade version of them.

With the new year I considered juice feasting. I decided that with so many projects going I would be a little stressed for time to do it full force like I would like to. Instead I picked up some MSM and a few cases of coconuts. I started by playing around by making MSM lemonade with my favorite raw honey. Made a really healing and refreshing drink with Aloe Vera from my backyard and coconut water. Then I started juicing again! I had been reluctant to buy kale at the market, since I get it for such a good price wholesale, but I broke down and did it. Kale, cilantro, cucumber and lemon became my buddies. Now I am in the habit of having a quart of green juice for breakfast and huge salads for the rest of the day. So, you probably say, of course you feel different. But I have never felt a difference like this....in my heart. Or what I believe to be my heart chakra. I knew that greens fed the heart since that is the color of the heart chakra, but sometimes have a hard time getting myself to eat or even juice them. Before getting back to juicing I had been snacking on my new cacao nibs quite a lot. It took a few experiences but I finally realized that too much of the cacao was making me too buzzed and even a feeling of anxiety. I was soo sad to learn this, since I ♥ cacao soo very much. But it made me evaluate what my heart might have been anxious about. With the start of the juicing, came the more feelings of overall calmness. I was able to let go of some unserving thoughts and desires and let better feelig things into my life. I feel so much more centered, grounded and at peace these past few days (even with the sleep deprivation).

So that's my story and I'm sticking to it. When the heart is hurting, love it up with some greens. I think that in itself is a great reason to eat greens. Get healthy, balanced and grounded.


My Aloe (remember when I first got them)


Breakfast of Beauty Queens

A parsley-tahini dressing with a big bowl of bok choy and kale.

Give Me More

This past weekend was filled with abundance in many ways. First off, my house filled with wholesale organic produce, then an abundance of gourmet raw food, and amazing times spend with friends all through the weekend. I guess the one thing that was lacking was the sleep. But who needs that when you have superfoods and elixirs. One of people I met this weekend encouraged me to keep up the content. Since he happens to be a big time raw blogger that I admire I am take going to make an effort to generate more posts to share this abundant life of mine. Instead of going on with a long post of everything that is spinning through my head right now, I will leave this and let you look forward to more frequent short posts.