Just call me the Professional Manifester

I really need to make an effort to blog more. I might actually have time for it now. I get to the point where I want to blog but the is so much on my mind I just get overwhelmed. So maybe a weekly update is necessary. Since you have heard from me I have been manifesting and vortexing with the pros. I started a new relationship, which was sparked by that cute little nose piercing I got the weekend I decided to let go of non serving "things" and juice fast. It's amazing the things that come to you when you decide to completely let go. This relationship brought so much. Everything a usual relationship does; romance, excitement, chocolate :) But this angel has really influenced my life, assisting me in really manifesting all the things I have been dreaming of. One of my intentions at the beginning of the year was to travel and in the past two months I have had two road trips and am about to depart to Raw Spirit Santa Barbara for the weekend and most likely will venture up to Oregon for the Raw Union. If you would have told me I would be doing all of these things a couple months ago I would not be able to wrap my head around how it would all be possible. But that's just the trick. I never have had to wrap my head around it all. Just take care of a few details and everything works out so smoothly. That is what the vortexing deal is all about. When things are meant to be then they will be without too much effort, or barely any effort at all.

The funnest part of these past few months has been my return to Eden. I had left Eden saying I will be back, and truly felt it. Yet when it got time to sign up the money and time wasn't there. I settled and said, well maybe it isn't my time this time. My love had other ideas. So low and behold we manifested me a spot in the kitchen working the luscious liquid love retreat. The details aren't too important. But I will tell you what I did realize about manifesting. It really is as simple as Abraham puts it in Ask and It Is Given. You ask for what you desire and let it happen, forget how it is going to happen and receive! I find that middle part is the hardest. We naturally feel the need to figure out how things are going to work. I did this for a bit with Eden, I had got somewhat frustrated, because I had asked for the time off, scheduled everything for my son and was planning what to pack, etc. just on the feeling that I was going. I had no confirmation. So as much as I was "ok with whatever is meant to be", I didn't want to get all excited by doing that last step of packing my bag, charging my camera while envisioning all the pictures I would take, spending 10 days with my love and then find out that wasn't going to happen. Finally I just really let go. I let it go to the angels, finally felt that no mistakes are ever made and I really don't need to stress. Once that happened. I got my confirmation within about 10 hours and everything was falling into place.

Days later we drove up to the gates, actually we had the gates opened up as we drove up, no need to even slow down! At some point it clicked for me. I was sitting in view of the kitchen at one point, and I flashed back to my first Eden experience. When we gathered to eat the delicious food that Melissa, Frankie and Philip had prepared, I remember looking at how happy and playful they were standing behind that table. I remember how at that moment I had this desire to be there with them. I admired the fun, playfulness, love and music that was going on in that tiny little kitchen and imagined how it must feel to be there. So that is the other key. You really have to put yourself in the feeling place. Observe your desire and feel it out for a second. No need to dwell on it, thing of how to make it work, nothing. If I would have let my mind do that then I would be planning and scheming on how to get some official raw culinary training and then get in good with whoever it may be that would get me in that kitchen. Instead I did nothing, and landed myself in the kitchen with some super experienced and talented raw chefs whom had at this point become very close friends and loved ones naturally. At one point the intimidation of working with this talent got to me and eventually landed me one sliced open finger, but that is another story.

More recently I have been in the kitchen non-stop. I fell in love with unbaking again and remembered where the desire to open a cafe came from. In the past four days I made four banana cream pies. I love the simple, nostalgic, homemade taste that this pie embodies and want to share it with everyone I possibly can. I have also been playing around with macaroons. These simple delights are so fun to experiment with. I came up with two fun flavors that I will be distributing at Raw Spirit along with LoveSnax chocolates! Speaking of Raw Spirit, I have the honor of driving up with my favorite raw celebrity and another raw blogger whom first introduced me to raw chocolate making. I am so excited to share this experience with the raw family and my son! If you are attending please come by Elaina Love and LoveSnax booths to get some raw love and say Hi! Take care and see you next week for the post party update.


One of my favorite pictures from Eden. Two of the three couples that were in the kitchen.