Balancing Act

Balancing is always a learning point for me. Whether it's balancing the work and creative life, balancing family and love life, balancing love life and me time....etc. At least I have given up the idea that I can equally section up all the areas in my life to perfectly balance. There just isn't time!

It's Libra time, that's why I have balancing on my mind. While I have a found that the universe has gifted me with a beautiful relationship in which I am completely free to take care of my needs and therefore keep a balance. I am appreciating reflecting on balance in a bigger, more long term perspective. It's nice to know that my balance struggle is no longer about finding time for all of my relationships. Although all of my "jobs" could use more attention.

The past few weeks I have been able to fully reflect on three months of "freedom" from the 9-5, corporate, capitalistic what not. I laugh at how quickly my moods and attitudes can change now. Now I see why my son's dad thinks I'm crazy. Anyhow, after virtually throwing out most of my office attire a few months ago, the past two days I shuffled through my closet to revisit some of my favorite professional looks. I got my sharp looking silk button down shirt on and slipped into my power shoes for an interview today.

So what drove me to this point? Money, duh! But check this out. I just now realize that I had yet another let go moment without even realizing it. The big epiphany I had that lead me to leave the 9-5, was that I was working out of fear. So I let that go and explored living on faith. So I saw it work. Yes, everyday in big and small ways. Whenever I would allow it, faith would provide. But I also had some old habits and learning to do. Basically seeing and feeling "failure". Someone from the outside could look in and see that I haven't succeeded in the typical way. Yet I learned exactly what I wanted to. I learned to be happy no matter what. I learned how amazing life is at it's very core. I learned to see simple abundance from the source and felt the joy of realizing there are no ordinary moments. It took some rough days for me to get to this. But I did it, and now I am ready for big paychecks again. So I easily let go of my idea that all normal work is fear work.

This is where the balance comes into play. I accepted the fact that I can work a typical job, not out of fear, but out of joy to provide a service and claim my prosperity. Also I am excited to be able to fully fund my dreams. While I enjoy knowing that I can trade my goods and services for many of the things I need in my life I can't wait to be able to provide prosperity to my loved ones for their goods and services. While I have fantisized about the community where we all support, trade and barter. It feels really nice to be able to afford what you may want or need and not think about how to get it. So I got over any preconceptions that having money is bad. When you read those finance self help books that tell you to get rid of those thoughts, it really is no joke. I always figured I may have those thoughts, but I could get rid of them easily because they seem so stupid. But now I see how deep seated they can be.

It feels really good to see the need for certain ideas and feelings at certain times. For they got me to where I need to be and then they were let go. Wow, I feel like that could sound flighty or unstable, but I say it's all just part of being in the flow. So as I journey on and explore the continual journey of what is right in the moment I offer these tasty morsels... Never settle and never limit your desires!!!

Love,
Disa