Live H2O

Last weekend I was fortunate enough to participate in the LiveH2o festival in Long Beach. If your not familiar with Live H20, it's probably because this year was it's first year. It was a global concert to heal our precious waters. So basically I manifested having a weekend office on the beach, while listening to amazing music and speaker and soaking up the amazing energy. I found myself going through some really amazing learning and healing in that space, all while having fun. All three days were amazing. Friday, I pretty much sold out of all the macaroons I had brought only to leave the beach just in time to head to the nearest Whole Foods and gather more ingredients. The next morning, my son was with my mom so I got a head start on heading out. I ended up being one of the first people from our group at the booth. So as I tried to tidy up as much as possible and with our booth looking disheveled as ever, my basket and backpack resting on a torn up folding table. I had my first sale of the day. I noticed a real change when my energy shifted. When I had arrived at the beach fresh, with no worries or expectations I had people coming to me and buying my product with no effort at all. That day seemed mellow. I found myself lounging in a chair, reading an old "ideal day" I had written out. Reflecting on some of the things that had manifested out of that. I realized that one manifestation that I really held fast to during the past year, " One day the beach really will be my office!" I remember how I use to just day dream about that, thinking oh that's a good motivator, but it's not my reality. Then one day it felt right and possible. Yes! I know that the beach will be my office one day, and knew that is would come sooner than later. So I sat there on Saturday, chatting with the girls, and realizing that I had manifested yet another dream. Even if it was just for the weekend, it was such a nice reminder of my power and possibilities. That day I ended up selling out completely of macaroons. This time stocking up even more at Whole Foods. Sunday was magic also, with a bumpy emotional start to the day I drove to Long Beach, headed to the farmer's market first. As I drive I always get messages in license plates. Usually always a 444 ( There are angels -they're everywhere around you! You are completely loved, supported and guided by many heavenly beings, and you have nothing to fear.) or a 333 (You are completely surrounded, protected, loved and guided by the benevolent ascended masters.) So on this morning I received two sets of 555. My quick interpretation was 555= big changes. I thought, yeah big changes, I know I am the one making them. I quit my job for crying out loud. Then I reached over to get out my Angel Numbers 101 bible, I seriously never leave home without it. Ok let me get the clear interpretation of 555. It read: Huge changes are rumbling throughout your entire life! To keep these changes on the highest possible course, be sure to keep your thoughts positive, and stay centered in prayer and affirmations. So after reading that I took a moment to offer some negative thoughts up to the angels. I simply asked for help. Less than two minutes after, while driving through the farmer's market parking lot I had an intuitive reader approach my car window and proclaim that she could see alot was going on for me while I drove by. I proceeded to park while she waited for me, she took me to her booth and knocked my socks off. As I walked away I knew that my angels lined that up so I could hear just what I needed to hear at that moment. I proceeded to gather some of California's finest produce and headed down to the beach to meet many other sychronicities. Everything I needed was there that day, immediately, without even asking. We ended the night with an amazing healing meditation/prayer to the water. It was so fun to see my son love up the water by completely immersing himself in the waves and sand. I wish I had pictures but I actually didn't take any. All in all, it was fun times had by all. Great healing, learning, growing and opportunities. It's all part of the fun.

Cleansing and Enemas!!! I'm coming clean.

Time to get down and dirty here. I feel the need to spread the word about enemas because I had developed a great appreciation for them and feel that the world would be a better place if we could openly talk about the stuff we shove (oh so gently) where the sun don't shine. Now I know there are people who take it too far, but there are people who take anything too far. I think it hit me when my son's dad inquired why I liked them so much. I had been raving about juice feasting with enemas. He just couldn't wrap his head around why I was raving about them. Yesterday I got the tip from the amazing Suki Zoe to to a garlic enema. I have had a slight cold for the past few days and this seemed like the perfect aid to healing. I had never know about garlic enemas. But it made sense, because of garlic's antibacterial qualities. This gave me the idea to share with ya'all.

I had been first introduced to enemas earlier this year, when I was battling a nasty post holiday cold that would not go away. My friend sternly asked me the last time I went to the bathroom. I thought, damn us raw foodies like to talk about poop too much, but then is dawned on me. I hadn't gone recently. When we are sick, we are usually backed up. Our body is holding onto toxins, no wonder we are sick. So he stated that an enema would have me feeling 100 times better. So I searched and searched and couldn't find any enema bags where in stores. Finally I researched online and found a stainless steel enema bucket. I really liked the idea of an easy bucket and not having my warm liquids steeping in plastic. I have to say it was one of the best $30 investments I have ever made. It is so essential to clean your system especially when fasting or cleaning, and when you find yourself sick.

So here is my revelation about the enemas, aside from the fact that they keep your booty clean. A couple weeks ago I was doing my liver/gallbladder cleanse and I was prepping for the coffee enema that you do on the flush day. I knew after the enema I would do a castor oil pack and rest, so I set up everything so I could get into bed and have everything I needed right there. I realized that I had been prepping my body for this flush for three days and I might as well treat myself as sweetly and gently as possible. Getting rid of gallstones and mucus that have been in my system since who knows when is a big deal. So I set up my enema equipment. Unplugged my cd player and put it in the bathroom. Played my Larisa Stow cd (yeah I still don't own an IPod) and lit my favortie candles. It was the best enema experience I have ever had. I ended up singing this one mantra over and over just because it was the one song that calmed me the most. Later to realize it was the ganesha mantra, fully appropriate for releasing obstacles. Here's what it comes down to, holding a quart or two of any type of liquid is not the easiest thing to do. The whole idea of putting something up your ... can cause some anxiety. But when you can relax and know that your body is stronger than you can ever imagine and visualize and know that all the junk that you have been holding onto that is no longer serving is on it's way out. Then damn, high- five superhero! Amen for taking care of yourself. I find that when the body calls upon cleansing, it is usually not just physical but emotional and spiritual also. I think anyone who has fasted can agree, you might enter in thinking you are just going to feel the physical side effects, then bam all these funky emotions and thoughts and sensitivities come about. The other week I got to hear Philip talk for the first time. He shared how he never went through any heavy detox symptoms because he was eating heavy things like large amounts of avocados and nuts everyday. I noticed that I do that same thing and have lately been in a habit of overeating. Even if it's the best raw food, I have found myself standing there senslessly scarfing, not because of hunger, but because there are things coming up that are so strong that I felt I couldn't deal with them. They weren't always sad per say, alot of times I was elated beyond belief but found that I needed to go to sleep so I could function "normally" at my job the next day. It's like I had to shut off the bliss so I could join the rat race again without feeling completely crazy. Now I am coming to realize that it's time to let these things surface. My body and my soul are ready a huge transformation and I have been supressing it for too long, afraid of my own power. Just last night, I used Philips advice. My cold moved from my head to my chest. My chest became so tight and at one point my heart was in pain. I had to stand in front of the mirror and just do some loving affirmations. I knew the chest tightening was me now letting something through and the heart aching was me feeling guilty for messing up and letting myself get sick. It feels so great to be able to listen to my body and hear exactly what this sickness is teaching me. As I layed on my bed last night I felt some emotions come up strongly, I cried for a minute and let them go and immediately my chest lightened up. I have a feeling that there is alot that I need to really release, not just focus on and work through but release! But thankfully I am in a really gentle loving and open space in my life where I have no fear of just letting them go. I have amazing people around me and I know that taking these moments to take care of myself are the best thing I can do. It's crazy to see how I have been into raw food for just about two years and I am now getting into the heavy cleansing part. I remember reading discussions and posts about cleanses and I couldn't understand what it was all about. I thought raw food alone was a cleanse and it seemed like some people were just taking it too far. But now I understand more about the body, and I feel now that my body wants to be stronger than ever, my spirit too. My inner self wants to rid all of the old thoughts associated with the old habits so we can finally soar and live to my greatest potential. Here's hoping you are soaring also.

Love Ya!


Gallstones on a Chuck E Cheese plate, these are the largest ones and probably a third of what I actually passed.

Just call me the Professional Manifester

I really need to make an effort to blog more. I might actually have time for it now. I get to the point where I want to blog but the is so much on my mind I just get overwhelmed. So maybe a weekly update is necessary. Since you have heard from me I have been manifesting and vortexing with the pros. I started a new relationship, which was sparked by that cute little nose piercing I got the weekend I decided to let go of non serving "things" and juice fast. It's amazing the things that come to you when you decide to completely let go. This relationship brought so much. Everything a usual relationship does; romance, excitement, chocolate :) But this angel has really influenced my life, assisting me in really manifesting all the things I have been dreaming of. One of my intentions at the beginning of the year was to travel and in the past two months I have had two road trips and am about to depart to Raw Spirit Santa Barbara for the weekend and most likely will venture up to Oregon for the Raw Union. If you would have told me I would be doing all of these things a couple months ago I would not be able to wrap my head around how it would all be possible. But that's just the trick. I never have had to wrap my head around it all. Just take care of a few details and everything works out so smoothly. That is what the vortexing deal is all about. When things are meant to be then they will be without too much effort, or barely any effort at all.

The funnest part of these past few months has been my return to Eden. I had left Eden saying I will be back, and truly felt it. Yet when it got time to sign up the money and time wasn't there. I settled and said, well maybe it isn't my time this time. My love had other ideas. So low and behold we manifested me a spot in the kitchen working the luscious liquid love retreat. The details aren't too important. But I will tell you what I did realize about manifesting. It really is as simple as Abraham puts it in Ask and It Is Given. You ask for what you desire and let it happen, forget how it is going to happen and receive! I find that middle part is the hardest. We naturally feel the need to figure out how things are going to work. I did this for a bit with Eden, I had got somewhat frustrated, because I had asked for the time off, scheduled everything for my son and was planning what to pack, etc. just on the feeling that I was going. I had no confirmation. So as much as I was "ok with whatever is meant to be", I didn't want to get all excited by doing that last step of packing my bag, charging my camera while envisioning all the pictures I would take, spending 10 days with my love and then find out that wasn't going to happen. Finally I just really let go. I let it go to the angels, finally felt that no mistakes are ever made and I really don't need to stress. Once that happened. I got my confirmation within about 10 hours and everything was falling into place.

Days later we drove up to the gates, actually we had the gates opened up as we drove up, no need to even slow down! At some point it clicked for me. I was sitting in view of the kitchen at one point, and I flashed back to my first Eden experience. When we gathered to eat the delicious food that Melissa, Frankie and Philip had prepared, I remember looking at how happy and playful they were standing behind that table. I remember how at that moment I had this desire to be there with them. I admired the fun, playfulness, love and music that was going on in that tiny little kitchen and imagined how it must feel to be there. So that is the other key. You really have to put yourself in the feeling place. Observe your desire and feel it out for a second. No need to dwell on it, thing of how to make it work, nothing. If I would have let my mind do that then I would be planning and scheming on how to get some official raw culinary training and then get in good with whoever it may be that would get me in that kitchen. Instead I did nothing, and landed myself in the kitchen with some super experienced and talented raw chefs whom had at this point become very close friends and loved ones naturally. At one point the intimidation of working with this talent got to me and eventually landed me one sliced open finger, but that is another story.

More recently I have been in the kitchen non-stop. I fell in love with unbaking again and remembered where the desire to open a cafe came from. In the past four days I made four banana cream pies. I love the simple, nostalgic, homemade taste that this pie embodies and want to share it with everyone I possibly can. I have also been playing around with macaroons. These simple delights are so fun to experiment with. I came up with two fun flavors that I will be distributing at Raw Spirit along with LoveSnax chocolates! Speaking of Raw Spirit, I have the honor of driving up with my favorite raw celebrity and another raw blogger whom first introduced me to raw chocolate making. I am so excited to share this experience with the raw family and my son! If you are attending please come by Elaina Love and LoveSnax booths to get some raw love and say Hi! Take care and see you next week for the post party update.


One of my favorite pictures from Eden. Two of the three couples that were in the kitchen.